What I miss

I miss walking in, and you screaming " who is that" when you knew it was me. You pretended to hate my hugs and kisses, when you secretly loved them. I miss spending sunny days with you out in your front yard. You would sit in a old ugly green chair and watch ur fat chuihuah run around, running very fast. I would attempt to climb or atree or get lost in the bushes and you scream "get outta there" Then I would go pick flowers of my way to aplogize, you would chuckle and do a little grin, that simply said you are forgiven and i love you. I miss waking up and having breakfast with you. You ould tease me about anything, and everything i did. But you always did some little thing that reminded me, you were just teasing. i miss watching wrestling with you...I miss you Grandpa Daddy-O..I really do. I wish I could see you, I wish i spent more time with you...I know you blessed me with every sunny day. I love you so much...

A year or so ago...

My last longest relationship was my senior year. Since then I was unable to maintain a relationship for over a month! My longest one was exactly a month! However, two months and a day is my record! He still opens the door for me, he still sends me the sweetest of texts, and I trust him more and more each day. Yea, two months is not very long at all, but it has been the best for me! I can not recall one single bad day, i had more not so good days, but they aren't even that bad. I smile a lot more easily, it comes naturally instead of forced. I laugh more than I have laughed in so many years! I'm proud of who and what I am. I know what my desired dream is and I'm working towards it more and more each day. Two months, really isn't that long, but in just two months, I was able to maintain a relationship with a guy who is completely different from all the rest, he makes me find confidence within myself, and when I don't have faith in me, he does. I really do love my job and the people I work with, they have become friends instead of coworkers. it's not the best of jobs, but its my job and I'm very good at it. Every day, every week, every month, things just keep getting better. It's not all because of the amazing guy I'm able to maintain a wonderful relationship with, I think its because of all the decisions I have made, an dthey all paid off purty damn good!