Country ain't Cowboy

You can drop them in the heart of the wilderness,

and they will find a way to survive and keep their lives.

You can put 'em on a horse or in unknown car,

and they will find a way to go.

You can put them in a room full of strangers,

and they will defend themselves but remind themselves of manners.

They come from the true blue country,

where love is true and everyone has an equal chance.

Their not true gentlemen, their not yankees from the north,

nor Cowboys from the west.

They are country-rebel-born.

Born to fight for what they believe in,

Born to defend themselves and family.

Raised by their mother, taught by their farther.

Raised to be true to one's love and taught all about respect.

They are rare, one-of-a-kind,

ones that keep your heart pounding.

They are the country men, not Cowboys,

that women, of my kind, want and desire.

What I miss

I miss walking in, and you screaming " who is that" when you knew it was me. You pretended to hate my hugs and kisses, when you secretly loved them. I miss spending sunny days with you out in your front yard. You would sit in a old ugly green chair and watch ur fat chuihuah run around, running very fast. I would attempt to climb or atree or get lost in the bushes and you scream "get outta there" Then I would go pick flowers of my way to aplogize, you would chuckle and do a little grin, that simply said you are forgiven and i love you. I miss waking up and having breakfast with you. You ould tease me about anything, and everything i did. But you always did some little thing that reminded me, you were just teasing. i miss watching wrestling with you...I miss you Grandpa Daddy-O..I really do. I wish I could see you, I wish i spent more time with you...I know you blessed me with every sunny day. I love you so much...

A year or so ago...

My last longest relationship was my senior year. Since then I was unable to maintain a relationship for over a month! My longest one was exactly a month! However, two months and a day is my record! He still opens the door for me, he still sends me the sweetest of texts, and I trust him more and more each day. Yea, two months is not very long at all, but it has been the best for me! I can not recall one single bad day, i had more not so good days, but they aren't even that bad. I smile a lot more easily, it comes naturally instead of forced. I laugh more than I have laughed in so many years! I'm proud of who and what I am. I know what my desired dream is and I'm working towards it more and more each day. Two months, really isn't that long, but in just two months, I was able to maintain a relationship with a guy who is completely different from all the rest, he makes me find confidence within myself, and when I don't have faith in me, he does. I really do love my job and the people I work with, they have become friends instead of coworkers. it's not the best of jobs, but its my job and I'm very good at it. Every day, every week, every month, things just keep getting better. It's not all because of the amazing guy I'm able to maintain a wonderful relationship with, I think its because of all the decisions I have made, an dthey all paid off purty damn good!

Over 2 years...

It has been over two years since I posted a blog. I have learned a lot in the past two years...the "great" boyfriend was not so great. I gave him everything I ad and returned it with a black eye and a punch that crushed me. I graduated from bauxite and attending college, its scary and confusing. But I'm proud of where I am. I moved out of the only place I ever known, Ico. I miss it, I miss the sounds at night, the coyotes singing and the whippoorwill that lived in the woods between my old house and my grandmother's house. my grandmother opened up her home to me, my mother and sister. I live in Jasper, work in Jasper, and ride my beloved horse. I'm happy where I am now. life is still rough, but that's just life. I have remained friends with old friends and have met new ones. I'm stronger than what I can ever imagine , I have grown up a lot but also learned to live, ride a little faster, kiss a fish, and never stop dreaming! My mother got married and is happy, my brother and I have grown closer together. These past two years a lot has happened and a lot has changed, but I wouldn't want to be anywhere else! Hello 2011...bring it on!

Good Bye 2008 and hello to 2009!!!

Well sorry I havent blogged ina while, never really have time to, and when I do have time, I'm to lazy.
what is there to say about 2008?? It started off really bad, then once the light began to show, it got covered up again. but I grew stronger this year. That I know I definately did. I completely switched schools, made a few friends, I have a great boyfriend, and I still have my girls from the mount just a call away. The saddest part, was moving out of the only house I remeber, it broke my heart seeing it completely empty. Every room, had so many memories in it. I mean EVERY room, even the little closet room that no one ever noticed.
I look forward to 2009. As long as no more friends past away, and my mother stays happy, I'm should be good.
Happy New Year every one!!

Thanksgiving Day

Well today I got a really sweet text message from my freind Sandy. It said "Happy thanks giving! I have known you since 2nd grade and i never told u this..but I'm so grateful to have you in my life. We have been through so much together and I couldnt imgine not having you here as my best friend!" Yea almost made me cry.
So I decided to write this,
This year, 2008, started off horrible, and got worse within the first month, it didnt get better either, I lost a friend, lost the house, changed schools, and have to adjust with living with grandparents. But I am totally thankful for every family member I have, espically my Grandma donald and Grandpa Mike for opening their arms and their doors(literally) to us. I'm thankful for every friend I have, no matter how often i do or dont see them.
I'm thankful for everything I guess you can say. I wouldnt change anything.
Happy Thanksgiving.

"Your the Man"

Only a short time ago,

in the heap of silence,

in the distance a motor is camin,

the sudden e ho of "Your the Man",

has broke the silence,

followed by the squeel of tires,

To be called "the man",

you left your black mark on the road,

A wheelie rode the longest,

or just winning a race.

Not until January 28 2008,

did we truly who"the Man" really is,

Like the others,

he left his black marks on the road,

rode his wheelies,

and won first place in the race,

Unlike the others however,

He was truly a man,

a great friend,

to always have a shoulder to lean on.

In the downest mood,

he would brighten up your day,

by suffering his own day,

just to see you smile.

Above all,

he had the biggest heart,

so big,

some claim to say it exploded.

So here we stand,

over the headstone,

that underneath,

it reads "Son your the Man",

because unlike others,

"Booner you are truly the Man"